I am staying current in my class but I often find myself having to stay up late or get up earlier in order to get my assignments completed and turned in before my deadlines. I do what I can as I can taking time off from work as needed but then feel this overwhelming guilt that I am not getting as much accomplished as I would like to due to my time constraints.
It is spring finally in Tennessee. Which means I am running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to make sure all the plants I have cared for and watched over during the winter months have what they need and are getting the nutrients and water they need to survive and thrive, which is rather stressful but a necessary evil for raising your own plants. Although the weather has finally broken and I can finally get them into their containers and allow Mother Nature to start helping out. She can at least water them and by providing the best soil possible they can feed themselves and grow into the plants I have dreamed of.
My house is not getting cleaned as often as I would like but only because on my list of priorities it ranks rather low. I get it done just not every week and often times when I am expecting company or the dog hair and dander start to cause me health issues. But this is not something I am stressing over or something that I am losing sleep over. I have always felt a tidy home is a sign of a lack of interest. No offense to those who are obsessed with keeping a spotless home, but since mine serves many purposes and I live with a man who dusting is a dirty word. (In other words I don't enter his man zone area) I often feel like I am trying to wash my car in the rain.
I am playing with my new camera and digital darkroom every chance I get, often making small breaks in my day to capture a beautiful butterfly on film or just taking shots of my amazing surroundings to capture that particular sunny day or incredible site. I am also learning about all the different ways to utilize my gadget and mastering the art of digital darkroom usage.
I am also working towards my accreditation with my collegian honor society. In hopes of furthering my goals of becoming a well employed bookkeeping or accounting professional. Working towards cleaning up my online presence as well as creating my professional portfolio and updating my networking skills in order to have a foot in the door with the right folks after graduation. It is a very busy year in my life and one that is going by way to fast.
I have created a website for my photography. I am enjoying it so much I don't want to miss a single opportunity to grow and learn and hopefully take additional photos to add to my growing collection. I have had a lot of positive feedback for the photos I have shared and look forward to more recognition for this hobby that brings me so much joy. If you would like to check out my new website for it I will post a link in this blog.
My New Photography Portfolio
Today I watched an incredible speaker with my Honor society, it was by Peter Bregman he is the author of a book entitled 18 minute Find your Focus it is about doing what you are passionate about and following your bliss in business. How many of us get bogged down in the details of living and forget how to live. How we need to prioritize what is truly important to us so those things get done and if we are going against the grain we will never succeed.
So many things in my life right now are pointing me in a new direction with my life. I really thought when I began this journey that I had it all pretty much figured out. Little did I realize that sometimes about the time you think you have found your niche something happens that shakes your world to the core and makes you take a long hard look at what you really want or what would truly make you happy.
I am unsure if this has happened because I am for the first time in my life actually stopping and taking the time to examine my own happiness and what I need to do in order to find my bliss. Or if this is happening because I opened the door to my bliss and decided that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Since my fathers death I have been making some pretty major changes in my life that have been snowballing. First it was eliminating commercial skin products from my life. Figured I would start small and go from there. Then it was the food we were eating and the things we were putting into our bodies.
I lost my dad to a rare form of cancer and my eyes were opened to the fact that toxins are all around us but most people either don't want to see or refuse to acknowledge their presence. And now I am taking the huge leap to stop smoking. That has been a long time battle for me and they say you don't truly stop until you are ready to make the change. I am ready to make the change. I am getting wiser and healthier with each passing day.
No I am not going to turn this blog into a statement about how our foods are killing our nation. This blog is about my bliss and how my live is evolving into what I really want out of life. I was simply bringing you up to speed on how things are progressing and the changes being made in my real life.
I am writing this blog not only to share my journey with others but also to keep a record of my journey for looking back at later. To better gauge how I was successful and where I failed in my attempts to create the life I want to live. I am finding myself reading more these days, on a very wide variety of subjects I never would have thought about reading before as well as revisiting many of my old favorites.
I am also learning about my own limitations and strengths. I am learning ways to overcome what I see as my weaknesses and how to encourage my strengths to compensate for those weaknesses. It has been an interesting journey to say the least and I can honestly say I am the better for having begun it.
I am not really sure where this blog was headed, I just felt the need to do some writing. Maybe the rainy weather has made me want to escape into my mind since I cannot escape into my garden and yard. I am unsure but hopefully reading about my journey and the progress and rather unexpected turns and twist it is taking will encourage others to begin their own. You never know where a path will lead until you begin to follow it. Pursing my own personal bliss has left me feeling a little bit overwhelmed from time to time but at the same time I am filled with a renewed sense of hope and happiness. It has given me an outlet for my creative nature while helping me keep my feet firmly planted in Mother Earth. It has given me a chance to grow and stretch and try my wings in a wide variety of things that before my journey began I was unsure would be a good fit for me.
I hope that your journey does the same thing. That is opens a world of possibilities that may as close as your own front yard. That is motivates others to find what makes them happy and pursue those things and who knows along the way you just might learn something about yourself and your world at large.
Until next time blog buddies. Stay safe, stay sane and be happy.
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