Stress and Hunger

Ok, I'm on day 4 and I'm so hungry! I've felt hungry all day. Tonight's dinner was chicken, which is full of protein. I was hoping the protein would make me feel fuller longer. I wonder if this feeling of hunger has anything to do with me getting up earlier, the boys going back to school, and me going back to work??

Whatever it is, I wish it would just go away. I've been smoking a lot more than usual today (yes, I'm a smoker). I'm smoking more so I don't eat more. I'm going to be in rough shape when I quit smoking. I've tried noshing on carrot sticks instead of smoking but that only works for so long.

This week is going to be a rough one anyway. I have so much to catch up on with work after being on vacation for over a week. The boys are getting back into their routine for school, which means they're up and fighting earlier than they were when they were on vacation. I also have an appointment on Thursday for my mammogram. That should be fun.

To top things off, one of my clients has requested that I fly out to San Diego next month. Not a big deal, right? Think again. I have to figure out who can watch the boys so my husband doesn't have to take that time off and I have to deal with my husband's phobia of flying. Not to discount his fears at all, but he's never set foot on an airplane in his life.

In case I haven't mentioned it before, I live in Maryland. Right now it's about 10 degrees outside with the wind chill. January and February are usually our coldest months. I'd be crazy not to want to go to San Diego where it's 70 degrees and sunny.

I've been weighing the pros and cons since yesterday. When it's all said and done, it's not worth it for me to fly out. If I earned more money with her it would be a different story. Besides, it kind of defeats the virtual part of my job.

And, on top of all of this, school is winding down for me. I'm in the home stretch of my current semester and only have one more left. That's right, I graduate with my bachelor's degree in business administration in just 3 months! I'm so excited about that. I've been in school full-time since 2005 and I'm in serious need of some time off. I'll be going back for my MBA in August when the boys go back to school.

My GPA is stressing me out, too. I had a 4.0 until last semester. I got Bs in two classes, which brought my average down to a 3.98. I know, I know...that's still an awesome average. But, to someone like me, it's not good enough. I'm trying to at least maintain that average but one class is kicking my butt.

Ok, I've bored you enough with my stressors and whatnot. It's time for me to get settled for bed because I have another busy day tomorrow. Have a great night!